Monday, May 21, 2007

A letter to the one God has prepared for me..

I am wondering at this very minute if you are thinking of me. If like me, you are wondering what is taking us so long to find each other. Many times I thought I finally found you only to be disillusioned by the fact that my wait has not yet ended. I get up each morning hoping, dreaming, longing to meet you.

I am thinking of how we will meet. Would it be as romantic as the ones I've seen in movies? Or is it possible that I have known you all my life but we have yet to realize that we are meant for each other? Oh how I wish you were here right now because you are the only one who has the answers to all my questions.

Sometimes I ask myself if I have ever really known LOVE. I do not have the answer to that question either but I believe that, more often than not, we will never really know what love is until we find that right person. And since I have not found you yet, then maybe I do not really know what love is.

You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, or your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways. I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through and of how much I cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me. The life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all the pain and sacrifice.

After all, the tears have become a part of my life, and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect. Not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect for YOU! I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. BUT my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here... patiently waiting for you... I assure you that when we finally find each other, I would slowly heal those wounds by my love.

At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are looking up and wondering about me too. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above, thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It's funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you I think of, for you are always in my dreams. It seems that for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you. Long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with tour arms of love.

and this, all the more makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead of me with hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. and when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I believed it would be... by then I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life. and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you!

In the meantime, take care of yourself foe me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don’t worry, don't be afraid about getting lost. God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Ulirang Ina

Kagabi, meron ginawa ang mama ko na hindi ko inaasahan, at hinding hindi ko ito makakalimutan habang buhay.

Di ko man ito nasasabi ng harapan, pero gusto ko po ma malaman mo na napakaswerte ko at ikaw ang naging mama ko.

Di ko man po ito sa iyo nabigay ng personal... sana magustuhan mo po ang munting regalo ko para sa inyo.

I love you so much ma. Happy mother's day!

Friday, May 11, 2007

Gusto kong Maging Senador

Kaya pala itong mga kandidato natin eh halos magpakamatay na sa pangangapanya para lng manalo...

Nagbago na ang pangarap ko... gusto ko na ding maging senador!!! Hahahahha!

Maganda rin naman ang naidudulot ng pagiging prangka ni Senador MiriamDefensor-Santiago. Ayon kay Santiago, marami ang tumatakbong Senadordahil sa laki ng budget na ibinibigay sa kanila kada buwan.

Lumalabas na P35,000 suweldo nila kada buwan ay pakitang-tao lang samilyun-milyong budget ng bawat senador. Kada buwan ay may Fixed Monthly Budget ang bawat Senador ng humigit-kumulang P2 Milyon.

Sa opisina pa lang nila ay humigit-kumulang P500,000 and budget nila saMaintenance and Operating Expenses (Rental, Utilities, Supplies atDomestic Travels) at P500,000 para sa Staff at Personal expenses. Kaya para makatipid ang ibang Senador, kaunti lang ang staff na kinukuha nila. Nagtataka kapakung bakit mayroong mga Ghost Employee?

Bukod diyan, may P760,000 allowance pa sila kada buwan para naman saForeign Travel. At ang masakit pa nito, hindi na kailngan i-liquidate ang mga resibong mga gastusin 'yan kundi Certification lang ang Requirement.

Heto pa, lahat sila ay Chairman ng mg Komite sa Senado. Ang CommitteeChairman ay tumatanggap din ng budget na sinlaki ng tinatanggap ng mgaSenador na humigit-kumulang P1 Milyon din! Hindi sila mawawalan ngKomite dahil 24 lang ang ating mga Senador at 37 naman ang Committee sa Senado. There's food for everybody 'ika nga! Lumalabas na doble ang kanilang benepesiyo at kita kapag sila ay nabiyayaan ng Committee Chairmanship.

Sa P200 milyon na Budget para sa Pork Barrel ng mga Senador bawat taon,awtomatikong may 10% na S.O.P. o kita ng Senador na P20 milyon. Ito angporsiyento na ibinibigay ng mga kontratista sa mga Senador na nagbibigaysa kanila ng mga Infrastructure at Livelihood Project.
Bago matapos ang termino ng isang Senador, kumita na siya ng P100 milyon sa Pork Barrel pa lang. Yung ibang Senador mas gahaman, hindi lang 10% kundi 20- 30% ang komisyon hinihingi sa mga kontratista.

Pansinin niyo na lang ang pagbabago ng buhay ng ilan sa ating mgaSenador simula nang manungkulan sa puwesto. Kung dati ay simple lang ang kanilang pamumuhay ngayon ay nakatira na sila sa mga eksklusibong subdivision, maraming bahay sa Pilipinas at abroad at mahigit lima ang sasakyan.

Ngayon nagtataka ka pa ba kung bakit gumagastos ng daan-daang milyongpiso ang mga Senador sa kampanya para sa isang posisyon na P35,000 lang ang suweldo kada buwan? Bawing-bawi pala ang gastos kapag naupo na!


Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Anniversary Blues

After a looooonnnnggggg year of storm (yup! last year was the worst one for us), finally, Honey and I had our 2nd year anniversary last Saturday (May 5). As expected, we did not have the chance to celebrate it together (as usual, work and school prio).

My original plan was to send him a scrapbook, unfortumately, I didnt have the time to do it though I already thought of the concept and even bought the materials as early as April. Since time is running short I need to think of plan B.

May 1. I texted Erol (Hon's bestfriend) to help me with my surprise plan, however, due to "some" reasons which I don't know, I never get a reply from him(hmmm something fishy in here). On May 3, I had a chat with Madir Leonor if she can help me with the stuff. She said "akong bahala dyan!", so I send the money through Gcash as well as the delivery address and message. Madir you're my angel!!!!

On friday night (May 4), Annie texted me that Niña (Hon's older sis) will be coming along with her. Yup! we planned to watch spiderman 3 on Saturday with my brother Mervin. Niña and Annie? Hmmmm, this will be a perfect time for bonding heheheheh!!!!

May 5, 12:00 am, Hon texted me with "Happy Anniversary Honey ko, I love you so much!", and I replied hon. After 5 mins my alarm rang with a message "Jessie, 2". I kissed Justin and greet happy birthday and went back to sleep.

May 5, 10 am, Hon texted me with "Nareceive ko na yun flowers! Ang ganda!!! Mwah". Hehehehe, that was my surprise. Courtesy of Madir Leonor, we sent Hon a dozen of white roses with blue balloons. Luckily, antipaktita wasn't in the office that time, for sure, she'll gonna get the flowers.. Ooopsss sorry antipaktita those flowers are for Mama myr... not for you... (shrug)

May 5, 4pm, I met up with Niña and Annie (Hon's sisters) at Glorietta 4. Ooooooh! super dami tao, we manage to buy tickets for 6pm show. Since it's still 5pm, we went to some appliance and furniture centers.

The movie was ok, except that it's konting nakakabitin sa ending (hey what do you expect in a film having 3 plots! Aside from the fact that its the end of the Spiderman trilogy). After watching, we went to Food Choices and ate at Dencio's.

The following day, I bought my MP4 player. That was Hon's gift for me hehehehehe.... no element of surprise huh!!! In fairness to hon, I really want an MP4 player, unfortunately, MP4s in Legazpi are quite expensive and konti lang ang choices. So we decided na dito na lang sa Manila bumili since its cheaper and maraming choices...Any way.. bottomline is its still a gift from my Honey and I love it!!!

Well... what do I expect for our 3rd year? Hmmm... I wish, no more problems that will force us decide on something that we'll regret forever.....

As of now, Im already collating infos for our "great day", knowing me na gusto organized lahat, I really want to plan as early as possible para magkasya din sa budget and walang maiwan na small details.

And of course... save save save... :)

Happy Anniversary Honey. I love you so much!!

Thursday, May 03, 2007

Marrying the Wrong Person

and they lived happily ever after...

Eh pano kung si Prince Charming eh mascara lang pala ni Mr Monster, anong gagawin mo? At least sa states me divorce, eh pano ngayon, nasa Pinas ka, e di tiis na lang forever?

Kaya sa mga singles, kahit gaano nyo man kalove si Prince Charming nyo, basahin nyo ang mga sumusunod na guidelines para maiwasan ang mga Mr. Monster na nagpapanggap na Prince Charming.


By Dov Heller

With the divorce rate over 50%, too many are apparently making a serious
mistake in deciding whom to spend the rest of their life with. To avoid
becoming a "statistic," try to internalize 10 insights.

1. You pick the wrong person because you expect him/her to change
after you're married. The classic mistake! NEVER MARRY POTENTIAL!! The
Golden Rule is, if you can't be happy with the person the way he or she
is now, don't get married. As a colleague of mine so wisely put it,
"You actually can expect people to change after their married...for the
worst!" So when it comes to the other person's spirituality, character,
personal hygiene, communication skills, and personal habits, make sure
you can live with these as they are now. It's as good as it gets!

2. You pick the wrong person because you focus more on chemistry
than their character. Chemistry ignites the fire, but good character
keeps it burning. Beware of the "I'm in love" syndrome. "I'm in love"
often means, "I'm in lust." Attraction is there, but have you carefully
checked out this person's character? Here are four characteristics to
definitely check for:
· Humility: Does this person believe that "doing the
right thing" is more important than personal comfort?
· Kindness: Does this person enjoy giving pleasure to
other people? How does s/he treat people s/he doesn't have to
be nice to? Does s/he do volunteer work? Give to charity?
· Responsibility: Can I depend on this person to do what
s/he says s/he's going to do?
· Happiness: Does this person like himself? Does s/he
enjoy life? s/he emotionally stable? Ask yourself: Do I want to
be more like this person? Do I want to have a child with this
person? Would I like my child to turn out like him or her?

3. You choose the wrong person because you do not share a common
life, goal and priorities. There are three basic ways we connect with
another person:
(1) Chemistry and compatibility,
(2) Share common interests and
(3)Share a life goal.
Make sure you share a deeper level of connection that sharing life goals
After marriage, the two of you will either grow together or grow apart.
To avoid growing apart, you must figure out what you're living for while
you are single-and then find someone who has come to the same conclusion
as you. This is the true definition of a soul mate. A soul mate is a goal
mate... two people who ultimately share the same understanding of life's
purpose and therefore share the same priorities, values and goals.

4. You pick the wrong person because you do not have deeper
emotional connection. To evaluate whether you have a deeper emotional
connection or not, ask: "Do I respect and admire this person?" This
does not mean, "Am I impressed by this person?" We are impressed by a
Mercedes. We do not respect someone because they own a Mercedes. Yes,
you should be impressed by qualities of creativity, loyalty,
determination, etc., but do you actually respect and admire this person
who possesses these qualities? Also ask: "Do I trust this person?" This
also means, "Is he/she emotionally stable? Do I feel I can rely on

5. You pick the wrong person because you choose someone with whom
you don't feel emotionally safe. Ask yourself the following questions:
Do I feel calm, peaceful and relaxed with this person? Can I fully be
myself, and express myself with this person? Does this person make me
feel good about myself? Do you have a really close friend who makes you
feel this way? Make sure the person you marry makes you feel the same
way! (That's why best friends usually fall under this category
perfectly! But that's another story...) Are you afraid of this person
in any way? You should not feel you need to monitor what you say
because you are afraid of how the other person will view it. If you're
afraid to express your feelings and opinions openly, there's a problem
with the relationship. Another aspect of feeling safe is that you don't
feel the other person is trying to control you. Controlling behaviors
are a sign of an abusive person. Be on the lookout out for someone who
is always trying to change you. There is a big difference between
"controlling" and "making suggestions." A suggestion is made for your
benefit; a control statement is made for their benefit.

6. You pick the wrong person because you don't put everything on the
table. Anything that bothers you about the relationship must be brought
up for discussion. Bringing up the uncomfortable stuff is the only way
to evaluate how well the two of you communicate, negotiate, and work
together. Over the course of a lifetime, difficulties will inevitably
arise. You need to know now, before making a commitment: Can you
resolve your differences and find compromises that work for both of
you? Never be afraid to let the person know what bothers you. This is
also a way for you to test how vulnerable you can be with this person.
If you can't be vulnerable, you can't be intimate. The two go hand in

7. You pick the wrong person because you use the relationship to
escape from personal problems and unhappiness. If you are unhappy and
single, you'll probably be unhappy and married, too. Marriage does not
fix personal, psychological and emotional problems. If anything,
marriage will exacerbate them. If you are not happy with yourself and
your life, take responsibility to fix it now while you are single.
You'll feel better and your future spouse will thank you.

8. You choose the wrong person because you get involved sexually too
quickly. This can be a big problem because it often precludes a fully
honest exploration of important issues. Sexual involvement tends to
cloud one's mind. And a clouded mind is not inclined to make good
decisions. It is not necessary to "test drive" in order to find out if
a couple are sexually compatible. If you do your homework and make sure
you are intellectually and emotionally compatible, you don't have to
worry about sexual compatibility. Of all the studies on divorce, sexual
incompatibility is never cited as a main reason why people divorce.

9. You pick the wrong person because the man doesn't understand what
a woman needs most. Men and women have unique emotional needs (Men are
from Mars...Women are from Venus!) and more often than not, it is the
man who just doesn't get it. The unique need of a woman is to be loved,
to feel that she is the most important person in her husband's life.
The husband needs to give her consistent, quality attention. Sexual
intimacy is always on the woman's terms. Men are goal oriented
especially when it comes to this area. As a wise woman once pointed
out, "Men have two speeds: on and off." Women are experience oriented.
When a man is able to switch gears and become more experience-oriented,
he will discover what makes his wife very happy. When the man forgets
about his own needs and focuses on giving his wife pleasure, amazing
things will happen.

10. You pick the wrong person because he/she is involved in a
triangle. To be "triangulated" means a person is emotionally dependent
on someone or something else while trying to develop a relationship.
But of course, being "triangulated" with God is the best triangulation
you could have with your partner! A person who hasn't separated from
his or her parents is a classic example of triangulation. People can
also be triangulated with things as well, such as work, drugs,
Internet, hobbies, sports or money. Be careful that you and your
partner are free of triangles. The person caught in a triangle cannot
be fully emotionally available to you. You'll not be their number one
priority. And that's not basis for a marriage. Ability is what you're
capable of doing.

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