I guess no one cares about me after all ....
Thursday, May 14, 2026
Monday, May 26, 2025
Kaya pa ba?
May mga pagkakataon na iniisip ko. Buti at binigyan ako ng pagkakataon na magkaroon ng partner na napakabait. Mapagmahal sa mga anak nya (oo anak nya), walang bisyo. Yun tipong ito yun specification na matagal ko ng winiwish. Binigay na, dumating na. Dapat masaya na ako at contented kasi ika nga, wish come true and we live happily ever after.
Pero... Bakit may iba akong nararamdaman? Parang may something na hindi ko pa rin alam. Yun maraming nangyayari pero ang alam ko lang ay kung ano ang nasa surface. Dahil ba sa hindi ko naman sya kasama maghapon? Hindi sya nag iinitiate na magsama kami? Dahil sa text lang kami nag uusap? Ang alam ko lang sa kanya ay ang lakad nya maghapon? Pero kung ano ang plano nya at iba pa ay wala akong idea.
Sa dalawang taon naming relasyon, aminado ako andon pa rin kami sa dating stage, mailap sya sa family ko. Di ko alam kung dahil ba ito sa pagiging mailap din ng magulang ko feeling nya di sya welcome. Eto ba ay dahil sa gusto nya lang ay "One day at a time" lang kami? O sadyang ayaw lang nya dahil di nya nakikita ang Sarili nya na kasama ako sa future nya?
Minsan naiisip ko ano kaya kung time out Muna? Para makapag isip ako baka kasi napepressure lang ako ng mga nangyayari? Pero natatakot ako at the same time na baka maging relief ito para sa kanya at may balikan sya? Natatakot Ako.
Marami na ako nabasa na ganong case, during cool off period naghanap sila ng kalinga kundi sa Ex ay sa Bestie at eventually ay naging sila na. Natatakot din ako sa sa mga kwento nya dati, nananghihinayang sya sa Ex nya. Noong nagbeg sya sa TOTGA nya na wag syang iwan. Pero kahit isa sa mga yon ay di nya yun pinaramdam.
Kapag family events, may times na nakakalimutan nya na naririnig ko yun mga bigla nyang sinasabi like "kung sasama kami at tatlo kami"... yun mapapaisip na lang ako bat tatlo? Sila sila lang? Kung di ko pa ipoint out na bakit di ako kasama, ang isasagot ay "Pwede naman". Yun tunog napilitan na lang. Di lang isang beses marami na cases na ganon. May isang case pa nga na talagang pinag awayan namin kasi parang ang bigat bigat sa kanya na isama ako sa isang event kasi may babayaran daw. Pero it turned out na sinama naman nya buong family pati gf ng anak nya. So parang nahirapan syang magsama ng isa pero nakapagsama naman sya ng 5.
Yun mga ganong tipong nakakadamdam lang.... wala sa loob nya na gawing akong part ng family kasi ang nasa isip pa rin nya ang pamilya nya yun namatay nyang asawa, anak nya at mga in laws nya. oo mas matimbang ang in laws nya. Mas mahalaga sila at palaging priority.
For companion lang ba talaga ako? Di ba talaga ako seseryosohin? Di ba Ako pakakasalan balang araw?
Natatakot Ako. Sobrang natatakot Ako.
Saturday, March 08, 2025
Love After Loss: Finding Relevance in a Relationship Between Two Widows
Love After Loss: Finding Relevance in a Relationship Between Two Widows
Falling in love again after losing a spouse is both beautiful and complicated. When two widows come together, they bring not only their hearts but also the past lives they built with their late partners. The challenge isn't just about building a new love but also navigating a world where the deceased spouse is still very present—on school forms, in family traditions, and at social gatherings.
For the new partner, this can feel isolating, even making them question their place in the relationship. How can they avoid feeling like a mere outsider or, worse, like a mistress in their own relationship?
Understanding the Emotional Landscape
Unlike a divorce, where a past relationship may be closed off or even resented, widowhood carries love and grief side by side. A late spouse isn’t an "ex"—they are a loved and cherished part of the family’s story. This means they will continue to be honored, which can sometimes leave a new partner feeling like they are living in someone else’s shadow.
However, relevance in a relationship isn’t about replacing the past—it’s about making space for the present and future.
How to Find Relevance Without Feeling Like a Mistress
1. Establishing a Unique Role in the Family
A common mistake is trying to "fit into" the exact role left by the deceased spouse. Instead of filling a void, create a new and valuable role.
Be present in everyday life, not just big moments. Help with homework, support emotional struggles, and celebrate small victories.
Show love and care in ways that feel natural rather than forced. If a child sees that you are genuinely invested in their well-being, they will begin to recognize your importance.
2. Setting Boundaries with Respect to the Past
A widow’s past love story deserves respect, but so does the new relationship. Some boundaries should be set to ensure the past does not overshadow the present:
Social Events: If the deceased spouse’s family still sees the new partner as an “outsider,” a conversation is necessary. A new love should not be hidden or treated as a secondary figure.
Traditions: Honoring the late spouse is important, but there should also be space for new traditions that involve the current partner.
Household Dynamics: If photos and belongings of the late spouse fill the home, it’s important to discuss what feels comfortable for both partners.
3. Being Involved in Family Decisions
A common struggle is when all major decisions—especially regarding children—are made based on “what Mom/Dad would have wanted.” While that’s understandable, the new partner’s perspective should also be considered.
Parent-teacher meetings: While the deceased parent's name may remain on records, attending these meetings as a supportive figure strengthens involvement.
Medical and legal decisions: While biological parents will always have the final say, a long-term partner should be acknowledged as an important part of the child’s life.
4. Acknowledging the Deceased Without Feeling Second Best
It’s natural to feel uncomfortable when a partner talks about their late spouse often, but open communication helps. Instead of seeing memories as competition, it helps to recognize that grief and love can coexist.
A partner can gently express their feelings:
"I understand how much they meant to you, but I also want to build something special with you. How can we make space for both?"
5. Standing in the Relationship with Confidence
A new love story does not need to be hidden. If the partner is constantly treated as a secondary figure in social settings, they must assert their place.
Introductions matter: Saying, “This is my partner,” rather than just a “friend” establishes significance.
Public acknowledgment: Whether it’s family events, social media, or daily interactions, a relationship deserves to be openly recognized.
Love That Honors the Past but Builds the Future
Finding love after loss is a journey of balancing remembrance with renewal. The key is not to erase the past but to create a meaningful present. A new partner should not feel like they are standing in the shadows but instead like they are building a new, significant chapter alongside their loved one.
Through patience, communication, and mutual respect, love can thrive—not as a replacement but as a continuation of life’s journey.
Falling in love again after losing a spouse is both beautiful and complicated. When two widows come together, they bring not only their hearts but also the past lives they built with their late partners. The challenge isn't just about building a new love but also navigating a world where the deceased spouse is still very present—on school forms, in family traditions, and at social gatherings.
For the new partner, this can feel isolating, even making them question their place in the relationship. How can they avoid feeling like a mere outsider or, worse, like a mistress in their own relationship?
Understanding the Emotional Landscape
Unlike a divorce, where a past relationship may be closed off or even resented, widowhood carries love and grief side by side. A late spouse isn’t an "ex"—they are a loved and cherished part of the family’s story. This means they will continue to be honored, which can sometimes leave a new partner feeling like they are living in someone else’s shadow.
However, relevance in a relationship isn’t about replacing the past—it’s about making space for the present and future.
How to Find Relevance Without Feeling Like a Mistress
1. Establishing a Unique Role in the Family
A common mistake is trying to "fit into" the exact role left by the deceased spouse. Instead of filling a void, create a new and valuable role.
Be present in everyday life, not just big moments. Help with homework, support emotional struggles, and celebrate small victories.
Show love and care in ways that feel natural rather than forced. If a child sees that you are genuinely invested in their well-being, they will begin to recognize your importance.
2. Setting Boundaries with Respect to the Past
A widow’s past love story deserves respect, but so does the new relationship. Some boundaries should be set to ensure the past does not overshadow the present:
Social Events: If the deceased spouse’s family still sees the new partner as an “outsider,” a conversation is necessary. A new love should not be hidden or treated as a secondary figure.
Traditions: Honoring the late spouse is important, but there should also be space for new traditions that involve the current partner.
Household Dynamics: If photos and belongings of the late spouse fill the home, it’s important to discuss what feels comfortable for both partners.
3. Being Involved in Family Decisions
A common struggle is when all major decisions—especially regarding children—are made based on “what Mom/Dad would have wanted.” While that’s understandable, the new partner’s perspective should also be considered.
Parent-teacher meetings: While the deceased parent's name may remain on records, attending these meetings as a supportive figure strengthens involvement.
Medical and legal decisions: While biological parents will always have the final say, a long-term partner should be acknowledged as an important part of the child’s life.
4. Acknowledging the Deceased Without Feeling Second Best
It’s natural to feel uncomfortable when a partner talks about their late spouse often, but open communication helps. Instead of seeing memories as competition, it helps to recognize that grief and love can coexist.
A partner can gently express their feelings:
"I understand how much they meant to you, but I also want to build something special with you. How can we make space for both?"
5. Standing in the Relationship with Confidence
A new love story does not need to be hidden. If the partner is constantly treated as a secondary figure in social settings, they must assert their place.
Introductions matter: Saying, “This is my partner,” rather than just a “friend” establishes significance.
Public acknowledgment: Whether it’s family events, social media, or daily interactions, a relationship deserves to be openly recognized.
Love That Honors the Past but Builds the Future
Finding love after loss is a journey of balancing remembrance with renewal. The key is not to erase the past but to create a meaningful present. A new partner should not feel like they are standing in the shadows but instead like they are building a new, significant chapter alongside their loved one.
Through patience, communication, and mutual respect, love can thrive—not as a replacement but as a continuation of life’s journey.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
