TOTGA

I'm really trying to make this relationship work however,

Until now, the words you told your TOTGA (which you denied a couple of times) is like a nightmare to me, caused me sleepless nights and anxiety.

"Ikaw nga yun TOTGA ko, aalis ka pa, di ko kaya mawala ka, I LOVE YOU THAT MUCH!"

Until now, it is still painful....

I can't help but after your stay in Balayan, everything is different, you even changed your plans, you dont want do be married with me someday...

Are you trying not to be legally committed to anyone so that when fate allowed that she is free, you can have her?

You dont initiate saying I love you anymore... is that word exlusive to her?

I'm starting to hate myself, I'm getting paranoid, I'm starting to get scared.

The pain I've felt with your late wife everytime you miss her is bearable and understandable but this one... your TOTGA is VERY MUCH ALIVE.

Will there still be a future? Is it worth to stay?